At the start of 2011 I was a very confused and sad person. I had no real idea of who I was, what I was capable of and most of all what my real value was to the world. Sounds dramatic, I know, but that’s the truth. For a very long time I let all the things that happened to me in my childhood control who I was as an adult. Mainly at the hands of my father. Don’t worry, I won’t go into the whole sad daughter, daddy didn’t love me bit. I will say it had more of an affect on me than I thought. I actually learned that I am a much stronger person than I thought and can handle a lot more. I finally drummed up the courage to stand up to him and take my life back. I decided that I wasn’t going to hold on to all the hurt, pain, and misery I had been carrying around. I gave it all back to him so he could deal with it from now on.

The hardest thing for me was (and still is) the loss of my best friend. I wrote an article for Curvy Mag that talked about friendship and how to be a good best friend. When I wrote that article I was very hurt. I was hurt that the person I called my sister could turn out to be someone that was so selfish and cruel. I cried and I was angry, but I then decided that is was time for me to move on. Like T.D. Jakes said, I needed to learn the gift of “goodbye”. I took stock of what her presence in my life meant and how we helped one another, but I then tried to find comfort in the fact that our time together had simply come to an end. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still hard because I miss her very deeply , I wonder how she is doing and want to talk and laugh with her again like we used to….but I know that it’s just not possible. SHE said goodbye. When someone can just turn around and walk away from me like I have no value to them….I let them walk. Plain and simple.

So this coming year I plan to take steps to start to love and enjoy my life more. I want to really start to figure out Vonda. 2012 is going to be the year I try new things, meet new people, learn new things, and advance myself and my career to new heights.  Huge things ahead! I plan on chronicling my journey here on my blog/journal that I’ve named  “Making My Way”.   So, whomever wants to follow along is welcome!  #letsgo!

I was excited when I received The Pink Double G. At first glance you may think this is a lovely piece of art…a really fun piece of art! Made of  soft pink Pyrex Glass, it is definitely durable.  It can also be heated up and cooled down to add some more fun to your fun with it.  It is odorless and tasteless and can be used flawlessly in the shower, tub, or wherever you’d like.

This is the perfect entry level glass dildo! It’s an averaged size (about 7 1/2) which isn’t intimidating.  It’s circumference at the widest point is around 3 1/2″. It has a gentle “S” shape hat makes it a great candidate for G-Spot stimulation.  It’s not heavy with a weight of only 9.7 ounces.

The “head” is nicely shaped without a dramatic point. Which makes it an OKAY toy for anal use with LOTS of care and lube.  There is the option for different experiences with the textures surfaces on either end.  This sex toy is VERY rigid so care should be taken when thrusting with it as not to injure yourself.

The Pink Double G comes nicely protected in a reusable satin pouch for safe keeping.  It can be easily cleaned with soap and water, toy cleaner or toy wipes. You can also clean it with 10% bleach solution or throw it in the dishwasher.

One note of caution: As with any glass items, subjecting it to extreme heat or cold makes it more prone to cracking or breaking.  The same goes with dropping it.  Make sure to check the Double G for any cracks or chips before using it to prevent injury. 

Have fun!!

They knew they were wrong.  They could have been caught at any moment.  They didn’t care.  This had been building between them for months.  He was the sexy, charming doctor and she was the first-year nurse.  They had exchanged looks, stares, even slight brushes of their bodies from time to time.  They dreamt about one another; wondered what it would feel like to be close to the other.  Often when she walked by him he would get a slight whiff of her perfume and it would travel through his body like fire.  He wanted her so bad.  She wanted him.

She was in the supply closet  looking for latex gloves when she heard someone come in behind her and close the door.  She turned to see the object of her lust standing right in front of her.  They had never been this close before.  They both had dreamed about it, but had never acted on it.

They stood staring into one another’s eyes amidst the shelves of medical supplies and background noises outside the door.  As far as they were concerned, those noises and anything else was on another planet.  It was just them two there.  The room started to feel hot, steamy as they studied one another.  They didn’t say anything.  They didn’t have to say anything.  They both knew what they wanted.  His eyes explored the features of her angelic face.  He had never been close enough to her to see how beautiful she was.  She had never been close enough to him to see how juicy and luscious his lips really were.  She wanted to kiss them, bite them.

He gently ran his hand along the side of her face and along her smooth bottom lip.  Her mouth fell open slightly and he could feel the heat from her breath sweep across his fingers as he drew her mouth to his.  Their kiss was slow, their breathing paced, like they didn’t want to waste a moment.  He used one hand to hold her face and the other wrapped around her waist and drew her closer to him.  They could feel each other’s hearts pounding through their chests.  Their kiss began to get hotter, deeper, and wetter.  She reached up and slid off his lab coat as he pulled her shirt over her head.  She leaned her body against the shelves as he forcefully pushed down the straps of her bra revealing her dark, erect nipples.  She squealed and grunted as he sucked and bit each one sending tiny streaks of delicious pin through her body. He held one breast in each hand as he went from one nipple to another, flicking each nipple.  She could feel the swell and tingle of her clit in her panties and he could feel the snug tightness of his dick in his pants.

She reached down and caressed his stiff bulging knot, slowly untied the string to his scrubs and slid her hand inside his boxers.   His dick was so warm and hard.  She could hardly wait to feel it inside her.  She slowly slid her body down his, dragging her breasts against his now exposed penis and slowly slid him inside her mouth.  He had to brace himself on the shelves as she swirled her tongue around the head of his dick.  Her mouth was hot and wet; her tongue wild.  His dick had gotten so hard and stiff that is was difficult for her to bend it down to her.  She could taste a little precum as she flicked the tip of it with her pink tongue.  She slowly stood back up to look him in his eyes as she licked her lips.  Out of breath, he stood watching her tongue glide across her moistened lips and the passion inside him boiled over.   He forcefully took down her pants and bodily lifted her up to him.  He pressed himself against her using the wall to hold her in place as he ran his hands up and down her back and he kissed, licked and bit her neck and breasts.  He could feel the warm moistness of her through her panties pressed against him.  He was like a wild animal.  He wanted it, his mouth began to water slightly as she moaned and groaned in his ear.  He first inserted his fingers so he could feel how wet she was.  “Oh my god.”  He thought to himself.  His fingers were almost swimming inside her.  He took his fingers out and put them in her mouth so she could taste her sweetness.

]]> http://vondahoward.com/2011/08/07/code-red/feed/ 0 http://vondahoward.com/2011/07/23/chaser/ http://vondahoward.com/2011/07/23/chaser/#comments Sat, 23 Jul 2011 00:28:45 +0000 vondahoward http://vondahoward.com/?p=132

Chaser was the hottest and trendiest club in L.A. There was a line of at least 100 people every night, crossing their fingers and hoping that they would be one of the few, not on the super-exclusive guest lists, to be let in.  Andre wasn’t usually a nightclub guy, but when he heard from one of his buddies that they had exclusive passes into this club he couldn’t pass up the chance.

They arrived at he club in true “baller” style.  One of the guys had rented an Escalade limo and they all went out and shopped for the perfect “baller-esque” attire.  They stepped out of the Escalade and slowly, strolled and strutted up to the very large gentleman guarding the entrance.  Andre looked around at the mixture of stares they got as they stood waiting for the bouncer to find their names on the list.  They were getting looks from “Who they hell are they?” and “Why are they getting in and I’m not?” to “Please take me with you!”.  After a few seconds the burly bouncer found their name on the list and waved them in.  They all cheesed as they walked into the neon-lit nightclub.  The room was filled with tight bodied models, and a few celebrities here and there.  Andre wasn’t impressed.  It took way more than this to impress him.  He grew up in a family that had money, but moved away to get “real life experience.”  He didn’t want his father to pay his way for the rest of his life.

As they all made their way through the crowds, Andre felt someone grab his wrist.  He stopped and turned to see one of the most beautiful sistas step out of the crowd.

“Can I help you?”  He smiled as he quickly scoped out her body.

“Oh, I’m sorry.  I just couldn’t let a man a fine as you walk past me without saying hello.”

“Well, that was nice of you.” Andre flirted as he kissed her hand.  “Would you like to dance?”

She looked him straight in his eyes as she nodded her head yes.  Putting her now empty glass down, she held his hand and led him through the crowd towards the crowded dance floor.  His eyes were trained on her smooth back that led down to a small slender waist and a voluptuously round and firm looking ass.  Just as they arrived to the floor, “Insatiable” by Prince began to play.  She looked him in his eyes as she pressed her body up against his and placed his hands on her coke bottle hips.

“What’s your name?”  He leaned down and whispered in her ear.

She looked up at him and smiled.  “Is that really important?  Knowing names only makes things more complicated.”

Andre raised an eyebrow.  “Oh really?”

“Yes.  I didn’t come here for my next long term relationship.  I came here to have a good time.  No names required.”

Andre smiled, nodded and wondered to himself, what he did for the heavens to shine on him in this way.  He thought to himself, “Was it that dollar I gave to the homeless guy at work?  Perhaps it was the penny I put in the dish at Starbucks?”

She laid her head down on his chest.  Her shoulder length black hair smelled like strawberries and her body was so soft against his.  He ran his hands up and down the shapely crevices of her back and caressed the soft roundness of her rump.  Her body was pressed tightly against his as they “slow dragged” to the deep pulsing base line of the song.  He was afraid to question her about all this.  He didn’t want to scare her off.  His brain told him to back away, but his dick egged him on.  She lifted her head up and looked him in his eyes.  Her lips glistened from the lip gloss she had put on right before she grabbed him.  She pulled his ear down to her mouth and whispered, “Let’s go somewhere more private.”

He nodded as she led him through the crowd and into one of the private VIP rooms.

“I do have to say,” he laughed, “This has never happened to me before.”

She locked the door behind them and pressed her body against his causing him to have to lean back on the wall.

“Well, I guess tonight is your lucky night, then.”  She said playfully as she ran her hands up his chest and looked deep into his eyes.

“Can I at least get your name?” His breathing hastened as the knot in his pants got bigger and tighter.

She looked him with a seductive, yet devious smile.  “Names aren’t necessary for what we are about to do baby.”

“If you say so.”  He reached around the back of her neck and pulled her into a deep and very passionate kiss.  The warm, moist, sweetness of her tongue made him kiss her harder and deeper.  His lips left hers to go nibble at her earlobe as he slowly slid his hand down curvy hills of her body and grabbing her thigh as she slid her leg up his.  Her thigh was soft and smooth as he slowly slid his hand upward, raising her dress with it, and grabbed as much of her round juicy ass as he could.

“Mmmm..”  She moaned deeply.  “Slap it.”

He smiled as he smacked the side of her ass causing it to jiggle and shake.  “You like that, huh?”

“Ooh, yes.”  She smiled as she lifted her dress and slipped it off.  Her body was one of the best he had ever seen.  Smooth shiny, milky brown skin, nice big bouncy breasts, small curvy waist, wide hips, and juicy thighs.  She looked at him as she turned around and bent over one of the chairs and jiggled her ass side to side.  “Do it again, daddy.”  You could barely tell she had a thong on because her ass was so big it disappeared between her bulbous cheeks.

His dick was rock hard.  So hard he just knew he was about to cum all over himself in a minute.  He walked over to her and pressed his dick against the round bounciness on her ass as her smacked it a few more times, allowing it to jiggle against him.  He reached down with on hand and began to undo his pants as he began to play with her now moist lips.  He licked his lips when he felt how smooth and warm she was.  She arched her back and let out a deep moan as he tickled and flicked her swollen clit.  She was getting so wet his hand were starting to slip and slide.  He slowly slid his dick inside her.  His eyes rolled to the back of his head because she felt so fucking good.  He held her hips with one hand and grabbed her hair  pulling her head back towards him with the other.  Each thrust  made her moan and scream louder and louder.  He could feel that he was deep inside her.  Her pussy seemed to grab and suck him in.

“Yes!  Yes!”  She moaned as she gripped the chair digging her nails in the leather.

Sweat began to collect on his forehead as he grabbed her hips and began to thrust and her harder and harder.

“You like that?”  He asked in a confident tone.

“Yes!”

Harder and harder, deeper and deeper, her pussy was wet and loud.  He loved it.

“Oh shit…I’m about to cum!”

Just as he said that she pushed him back, turned around and kneeled in front of him.  She grabbed him by his hips and rammed his still rock hard dick in her mouth.  She was wild and sloppy sucking it too…he loved it.  She grabbed his dick and pushed it so far into her mouth that she gagged slightly.  Just the wet sound of her sucking his dick was enough for him to almost cum all over her face but he held back for a little more.  It was killing him though.  Her mouth was wet, warm, soft…almost as good as her pussy was.  She twisted her head side to side, back and forth.  She even cupped and caressed his balls as she sucked him ferociously.  She stopped for a moment and lifted his dick so that she could suck his balls.  He almost lost his balance and she rolled his them around in her mouth.  It was at that point he could no longer hold it back.

“Oh shit…”  He said in a deep struggled tone.

Before he knew it he was cumming and she put her mouth right in the way to catch it all.

“You’re one nasty bitch.”  He said with breathless laughter.

“You like it though.”  She said licking what was left of him off the corner of her mouth.

“I still can’t get your name?”

]]> http://vondahoward.com/2011/07/23/chaser/feed/ 0 http://vondahoward.com/2011/07/23/product-review-the-hugs-vibe-by-doc-johnson/ http://vondahoward.com/2011/07/23/product-review-the-hugs-vibe-by-doc-johnson/#comments Sat, 23 Jul 2011 00:06:36 +0000 vondahoward http://vondahoward.com/?p=153  

The Hugs Vibe by Doc Johnson arrived in very colorful and easy packaging. Once I giggled in delight and took it to the privacy of my room to check it out I found it to be very cute.  It is a very good beginner’s vibrator in that the simple shaping and size is not intimidating at all.

This sweet design starts with a rounded head, which flows into a tapered neck before widening into the 6 inch shaft.  It’s velvet cote surface is very smooth to the touch and would works well when coupled with lubricant.  The shape of it can be useful for G-spot stimulation for beginners, but it is not a full on G-Spot vibrator.  However with some lifting and positioning it may work just fine.  ;o)

A gentle press on the heart-shaped button on the base will allow you to choose between high, medium and low vibrations.  The vibrations are nothing mind shattering, but get the job done. An “advanced” sex toy user may find even the highest settings to be lacking a bit.  The good thing is that there are enough vibrations in the head of it to get some pretty decent clit stimulation.  The button is easily placed on the back of it which makes it easy to change speeds while having fun with it solo.

One flaw is that it’s not very quiet.  The buzzing can be a bit loud so it’s best to use it in places where discretion is not a huge factor.

I would not necessarily suggest this toy for anal play.  It lacks the proper size and shape that is needed for easy and safe insertion.

Another excellent trait of this vibrator is that it is completely waterproof!  That means it is totally safe for use in pools, showers, hot tubs, whatever your little hearts desire. Cleaning is a synch also.  I would always suggest using proper toy cleaners, but in a fix, soap and water won’t hurt it at all.

This vibrator uses 3 AAA batteries and has a pretty good life on that.

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This whole thing was new to him.  He felt like a pervert watching her, until he caught her watching him.  Ever since then, they have been playing this erotic game with one another.  She would conveniently undress in front of the window, or come out of the shower and lotion herself when she knew he was there.  They would leave notes and roses on each other’s door.  He found himself planning his nights around seeing her.  Even though they had never spoken verbally, their bodies and souls knew each other well.

He could see her walk in the apartment through one of her other windows.  She passed each window until she was in her bedroom.  She shot a seductively sexy smile at him and turned her back to him slowly pulling down one of the spaghetti straps on her dress.  She turned, facing him and gestured for him to look behind him.  He turned and looked to see red satin sheets folded and placed on his bed with a small note attached that read, “Let’s play.”

He unfolded the sheets and was overwhelmed by the scent of jasmine and vanilla.  He smiled and turned back around to see her standing looking at him wrapped in a red satin sheet of her own.  At that very moment his dick hardened.  He watched her intently as she seductively walked over to the bed releasing the sheet from around her, slowly revealing the smooth shiny curves of her lower back and buttocks.  He could feel his temperature begin to rise as he gazed at her curvy form standing in front of her bed.

She began to caress her shoulders, waist, hips and her round and oh-so-shapely ass.  He licked his lips as he tried his best to imagine how soft and smooth her warm flesh was…he could not help but to begin to touch himself.  She slowly bent over and crawled over onto the bed, exposing her smoothly shaved pink lips.  Remaining on her knees, she spread her legs open enough to show the perfect pinkness.  His legs were beginning to buckle so; he sat down on the side of the bed before he fell.

She reached her perfectly manicured hands between her legs and began to play with her clit.  Her back arched as she began to grunt and moan from the pleasure.  She opened her eyes and turned her head to stare in his eyes as she slowly inserted her finger inside.  Her breathing was fast, her heart raced; her body began to glisten from perspiration.  She made her hips revolve as she continued to play with her clit and pussy.  He wiped away the sweat that began to collect on his forehead.  His dick was so hard that it was beginning to hurt and scream for his attention; so he undid his pants and reached inside.  His mouth moistened at the sight of the pink wetness of her pussy.  He wished he could taste it, smell it, hear it.

She turned around on her back, leaving her legs open for him to enjoy.   She looked him in his eyes and tasted the creamy sweetness that was on her fingers.  She traced a moist path from her cherry stained lips down to her dark brown erect nipples.  Her body squirmed and twisted as she pinched her nipples and teased her clit.  She was so wet and slick that she could barely feel her touch.  She leaned her head back in an effort to release the fire that was within her.

Watching her and not being able to touch and feel her was killing him.  He jerked his dick as he focused in.  He could only close his eyes and imagine how he would feel inside her; warm, soft…tight.

He began to stroke himself faster and faster as she began to reach her peak.  Her body began to shake and twist as she rubbed her clit faster and faster.  He could feel the build up and pressure and held on to the sheets in preparation of his explosion.

Her breathing became sporadic and heavy as she pulled her legs open as far as she could to make way for the explosion of fluids that was building within her. Faster and faster she went until she burst into a fireball of intense satisfaction.

The sight of her screaming orgasm was too much for him.  He couldn’t hold it in any longer.  He gripped his dick until his fluids erupted down the sides of his hand.

Copyright 2007-2011  Vonda Howard   All Rights reserved

]]> http://vondahoward.com/2011/07/13/red-satin-sheets/feed/ 5 http://vondahoward.com/2011/07/01/hello-world/ http://vondahoward.com/2011/07/01/hello-world/#comments Fri, 01 Jul 2011 13:57:20 +0000 vondahoward http://vondahoward.com/?p=1 I knew exactly what I wanted when I entered his dressing room. We had been making eyes at one another for weeks. I sat out in the audience with the other managers and watched him shake his perfect ass and swing his big dick and I just could not take it anymore. I had to have it. So after his set, I was going to go backstage. Yes, I know you say he’s a stripper, Ava. He’s supposed to make eyes at women, but it was different. The way he looked at the women shoving dollars in his g-string and the way he would looked at me was different. It was genuine, passionate. He knew that most of these women were “in love”, they wanted relationships, and I just wanted to fuck. I don’t have time for relationships.  Been there…done that.

I sat there and watched him, my pussy getting wetter and wetter by the minute. I crossed my legs in an effort to satisfy the tingle and swell of my clit. Each gyration he gave sent pulses of electricity through my veins. His sweaty skin glistened in the lights; I could just feel him inside me. He was sexy as hell; 6 feet of dark, bald head, luscious, creamy chocolate and I wanted a bite. We would catch eyes every now and then, and exchange playful smiles.

After his set, I did just what I said, and quickly made my way through the crowds of horny women and headed to his dressing room.

When I entered his dressing room, he was in there alone as all the others were out preparing for their sets. We didn’t say a word to one another, we knew what was about to happen. I shut the door behind me and slowly walked over to him, unbuttoning my shirt. My eyes raked over his chiseled half dressed body as I walked to him making sure to press my breasts against his smooth chest. He looked down at me and gave a bright and approving smile. Reaching around the back of his smooth shaved head, I forcefully pulled his lips into mine. They were so soft and warm; his tongue strong and wet. He wrapped his masculine arms around my waist and drew me even tighter against him. I could feel his warm breath against my face as we kissed. His rough yet gentle hands caressed my back as I began to kiss his neck and chest. He tasted so good. I used the tip of my my tongue to trace a path up his chin and back to his waiting lips. Our kiss was rough, and filled with intensity. He began to kiss my neck and shoulders; I opened my eyes to see one of the other dancers over in the recliner stroking himself as he watched. I was startled at first but realized in that moment that this was my chance to have my wildest imaginations come true. I seductively gestured for him to come over and watched him as he slowly rose from the chair and walked over behind me. He was just as tasty as the first. He was 5’9, caramel, athletic build. I could feel my mouth moisten as he approached me.

The fire burned hotter and hotter within me as I was now engulfed in this deliciously decadent chocolate man sandwich. Their hands were all over me; my breasts, my ass, thighs, my pussy. One unbuttoned my bra while the other reached up my dress to remove my panties. I got down on my knees with both of them standing on either side of me, their pants bulging from their rock hard dicks inside. After unzipping and unbuttoning their zippers, I pulled out their dicks and proceeded to suck the hell out of them. I love giving head.  Love it.  I love the way a rock hard dick feels against my tongue.  Sliding back and forth; in and out.   went back and forth from one to the other, leaving trails of saliva as I went. I wanted to try to taste as much of them as possible. Randomly, I would push them all the way to the back of my throat until I trigger my gag reflex. They moaned and groaned at the feeling of my warm and extremely wet mouth.

After tasting their chocolate goodness, I just had to feel them inside me, so I stood up and sat back in the chair lifting and opening my legs so they could see my pink wetness. One of them grabbed my hips pulling me forward and slowly gliding himself inside me while the other stood beside me guiding my mouth back to his stiff rod.  It was like every nerve ending inside me stood at attention as the perfection that was his dick slid against my insides.  I could feel the warmness of my fluids as they drizzled down from me covering him.

“Oh shit baby.  Your pussy is so…fucking…good.”  He said biting his bottom lip.

My body filled with liquid fire. I could barely contain my outcry of delight, but was muffled by the thrusting dick in my mouth. My body wiggled and squirmed as I tried my best to control the extreme levels of pleasure from this experience. I was so wet you could hear it. They took turns moving to either end of me; mouth to pussy and back. I lick the corners of my mouth and taste the sweetness left behind.  This was the most intense sex I had ever had. I felt like every nerve ending in my body was awakened.

I could feel and taste the saltiness of their impending orgasms. Faster and faster we went until we all reached our liquid peaks. I released a sigh of satisfaction as their fluids slowly trickled down my chin and thigh.

Copyright 2007-2011  Vonda Howard   All Rights reserved